hello… do you want to know whos a little bitch? YOU are!!! just kidding.
i had this dream the other night that i walked into the bar of “The Ralph Lauren Polo Club” and i sat down by the bar and asked for a whisky. The bartender said didnt I want a dark beer instead, a Guiness or a Porter? I said, do you think its too early in the day for a whisky? and he said no no no and laughed it off, but still I got a porter instead of a whisky, which happens to be my drink of choice.
Then, I was suddenly Lena Dunham in girls, but still in the bar, and I was there to secretly write something problematic about the bar, but instead I reconnected with my (Lena Dunhams) ex Jack Antonoff. Jack Antonoff was throwing basketballs on a grassy hill (still in the Ralph Lauren Polo Club) and told me/Lena to throw myself on the basketballs and roll down the hill. This seemed like something they used to do.
I then reflected on how I, the real me, is scared of basketballs and could not have played that game and i was conscious of how I was not Lena Dunham, I was just someone else in my dream.
when I woke up, I asked chat gpt to analyze this according to jungian dream theory and it said about the bar and the drinks that whisky represents maturity and strength while guiness/porter is heavier and more down to earth. The bartender is steering me away from the whisky and I ask him if its too early in the day. It says that this could be an inner conflict between wanting to take myself seriously (whisky) and being more anchored in something robust and steady (guiness)… i dont really know about this. i see no conflict between these two. i think i can have my whisky and drink my porter too, you know.
this is like the fifth time in a row I am someone else in my dreams, even though Lena Dunham was new. chatty says this could mean I am reshaping my identity and that I am searching and exploring different roles in life. this seems true
i have been hearing and seeing the ice cream truck all the time lately. I used to only hear it once a week and it used to make me really feel something. but now that i hear it every day its not that special anymore… but im happy it still exists. shine on you crazy diamond
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